ToothBus

Seriously, I feel like my brain and heart should be taken from me for a time. 

You can completely fully believe with every part of you that you want something, and as soon as you get it, it’s what you don’t want.

At the moment I’m feeling a bit too relied on. Feeling like too many people’s mammy! :/ I’m always the protector and never the protectee :P

It would be lovely to feel wanted in a way that doesn’t make me feel like an advisor or parent.

• Have you ever:
• 1) Self harmed? never
• 2) Got into a real fight? my alter ego has :3
• 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? never
• 4) Tried to commit suicide? never, life is too short as it is!
• 5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? oh god yeah!
• 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? how about 2 seasons! of skins :)
• 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? that’s just how i do’s
• 8) Accused someone of using you? I don’t think so, it’s normally the other way around!
• 9) Shoplifted? accidently :P
• 10) Gotten drunk/high? drunk- only a handful of times, high- never
• 11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing? well, yes, of course.
• 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? NOPE! 
• (Right now) Are you:
• 13) Suicidal? not at all
• 14) Bored? a tad
• 15) Avoiding someone? not really!
• 16) Avoiding some task? German literature study! D:
• 17) Depressed? not in the slightest
• 18) Crying? NO
• 19) Annoyed with a friend? nope
• 20) Worried and confused about something important to you? yes
• Do you:
• 21) Get depressed easily? nope!
• 22) Get jealous/envious easily? for sure! 
• 23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? nope, i love music, but I’m not a believer in it’s ‘powers’
• 24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? yes, currently doing so
• 25) Try hard in all your classes at school? HA! no.
• 26) Go out drinking? go out i do plenty, but drinking, no!
• 27) Smoke cigarettes? never
• 28) Smoke weed? never have!
• 29) Do any hard drugs? none at all, ever!
• 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why? -
• 31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? i belong to no religion!
• 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? i try to.
• 33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain? it works for some people, but that’s a horribly low place to be.
• 34) Believe people deserve second chances? yes, I’ve needed them a good few times.
• 35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying) nope
• 36) Think things will get better? what’s wrong with how they are!?
• 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? I’ve done wrong and constantly do, but why would i be punished :)
• 38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest) of course i do :)
• Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
• 39) Long hair OR short hair? long
• 40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs? nice smile, i dont like abs tbh!
• 41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest? BOOBIES :)
• 42) Shy OR open? open
• 43) Eyes OR body? eyes
• 44) Religious OR non-religious? preferably non religious
• 45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? Caring, maybe a bit overly so.
• 46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? non-straight edge, but not crazy either like!
• 47) Piercings OR no piercings? piercings
• 48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? tattoos, lots of them, covered, everywhere.
• 49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? in between :)
• 50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? both, parents love me anyway, friends not so much.
• Would you:
• 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? i have before, but i generally don’t.
• 52) Smoke weed? no
• 53) Smoke cigarettes? no way
• 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? FUCK YES
• 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? I have, a few times.
• 56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? No, nothing is ever that bad.
• 57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? no religious views, but i do believe in people, so yes.
• 58) Join a band as a part time activity? I’d love to :)
• 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? I’m too sypathetic
• 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? yes, i always do.
• 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? I’d definitely do that!
• 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? don’t think so!
• 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? I used to do that when i was younger, but now i don’t care.
• 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? yes, mostly religious views
• 65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people? yup, now thats difficult.
• 66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them? a teensy bit :P
• 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? a little
• 68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? yep
• 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you? maybe, if Dita’s surgeon wanted to gimme some titties!
• 70) Sleep naked? yeah :)
• You can only choose one:
• 71) Black or Orange? black
• 72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore? they are both shit tbf
• 73) Cellphone or Computer? computer!
• 74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? COKE! GOD LIKE
• 75) Tumblr OR Friends? friends
• 76) Mac OR PC? pc
• 77) TV Shows OR Movies? shows :)
• 78) Old bands OR new Bands? old 
• 79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? alternative
• 80) Reading OR Listening to music? READING
• 81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice. Coke, pepsi is a bit of a cheap copy.
• 82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically? Staying, you can change, it doesn’t have to be drastic.
• 83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge?  clean vocal bridge
• 84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice. IDEK WHO DA FUQ.
• 85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice. AGAIN WHO DA FUQ
• 86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? comedy obv, Kirsten wiig can play me :)
• 87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?  Europe, i love that crazy place
• 88) Shoes OR Shirts? shoes :3
• 89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence? what is diiiis!?
• 90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice. Well I’m in university, currently pondering this situation. At the moment I have the option of moving up the ladder in the company that i work with, but I’m not sure if i should just stick out uni!
• Almost over:
• 91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest. of course
• 92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family? not at all!!
• 93) Do you want to travel when you are older? i wanna travel now!!
• 94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams? I will. not i would. I will.
• 95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions? i did actually
• 96) Rather be the opposite gender? oh god, all the time
• 97) What will you name your son/daughter? Beo/Beau, Charlie :)
• 98) Do you get harassed more than most people do? A BIT! :/
• 99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.Metallica, are so overrated.
• 100) What makes you a bad person in your mind? my inability to commit to descisions without worrying about regrets.

So, i have a very important exam tomorrow that I am in serious risk of failing, and here I am on tumblr :P

It feels like the exams have been going on for about 4 million years! I can’t wait for the to be over so summer can finally start! :)

So far both of the english papers went really well for me and all of my psychology exams have consisted of me picking answers solely based on how fancy the word was :P lets see how that goes for me! :P

This day next week I’ll be FREE!! :)